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THERES
AN OLD PROVERB that says that you cannot really understand another
person, or their job, unless you walk a mile in their shoes.
Well, that has been my experience since August, when David left
for his sabbatical in America. I have walked many miles
and have learned first-hand what it is like being the Director of
the Centre, albeit it I have only been maintaining rather than developing
the Centre while he is away.
Davids
sabbatical was a long time coming; he postponed it on several occasions
in the lead up to and following the transition from ECONI to the
Centre for Contemporary Christianity in April 2004. It has been
good for him, and us, that he has stepped out of his shoes
and occupied a different role in a new setting in Duke University
in Durham, North Carolina. David is the first Fellow of the Center
for Reconciliation Visiting Practitioners programme, which provides
renewal, reflection, continuing education, and writing space for
leading Christian practitioners across the world. The Center for
Reconciliation hosts and, at the same time, benefits from the presence
of visiting Fellows as they enrich Duke's teaching and formation
around faithful Christian practice.
David has been
teaching a course on the theme Thinking Biblically, Building
Peace: Perspectives on Reconciliation and Conflict Transformation
from the Northern Ireland Experience. In addition, he has
been tutoring a module for a ThD student, preaching and has given
public lectures and spoken at other teaching events. In early December
he spoke at the Boston Theological Institute at Harvard. This was
one of his last engagements before taking a winter holiday with
friends in Florida. By the time you read this, he will be back at
his desk and I will be enjoying the comfort of my own shoes.
As Acting Director
I have had my own kind of sabbatical not one characterised
by rest, rather one where sabbatical is defined as any extended
period of leave from one's customary work, to acquire new skills
or training.
I have been
involved in aspects of the Centres life that have caused me
to look for, and find, the management skills that have been dormant
since my days at the YMCA. I have had to pay attention to internal
operational concerns and external context issues so that the Centre
can make its contribution towards a shared future. This has been
a really challenging time for me, because I have endeavoured to
deliver my own programme as well. I have only survived because the
Support Services team have kept me afloat. May God forever bless
Linda, Adrienne, Trevor and June!
What I have
noticed as Acting Director is the absence of space. My days fill
with deadlines and meetings. There were times when the wheels came
off the wagon. Standing in for David at one meeting, which I thought
was a launch event and turned out to be something else, I was late,
had no papers, no diary and, worst of all, no idea what I was meant
to contribute. I bluffed and got a free lunch for my efforts but
I dont want to do that again. Being overloaded with busyness
is not good for the organisation, or for my own soul. Being busy
all the time looks good on paper and seems to reflect purposefulness
and intention, but without space to stop, rest, notice and pay attention
to what really matters, it all becomes smoke and mirrors.
It seems fitting
that I should come to this realisation of sabbath following our
annual conference on Spirituality, which is also the theme of this
edition of Lion&Lamb.
At the November
conference in Armagh, our keynote speaker, Marva Dawn talked about
the way that keeping a sabbath changed her completely, and how,
at a particularly busy time in her life, she kept one day when she
wouldnt work. She recognised that busyness had become a bondage
that God wanted to set her free from. So she just worked six days.
It was that simple. Everyone in that room at the conference recognised
the truth of what she said, but when she asked us why we did not
keep sabbath, the laughter from the floor revealed our truth that
we would rather harm ourselves than sacrifice our self-importance.
As the greatest gift God created, the very climax of creation, she
exhorted us not to treat the sabbath day in a throwaway way, but
to see it as a day for us to join the whole cosmos, and rest.
When the word
for sabbath actually means stop, there is something
important for me to hear, and also for you to do as you read this
magazine.
Stop.
Stop what youre doing and worrying about, then find a comfortable
place and rest. Remember sabbath.
This is how
we get enfolded into Gods purposes, by resting, not rushing
and thats the kind of spirituality we should be nurturing.
May the thoughts and ideas in this magazine empower you to stop
and declare sabbath on those things that will ultimately harm you.
May you find the space to practice sabbath and begin to pay attention
to what really matters.
LYNDA GOULD
is a Programme Director at the Centre for Contemporary Christianity
in Ireland.
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