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review:
THE COLOUR OF DARKNESS
A personal story of tragedy and hope in Rwanda
Reviewed by Jacqui Livingstone
THE COLOUR
OF DARKNESS by Lesley Bilinda tells the harrowing story of the genocide
which took place in Rwanda between April and June 1994. It is the
personal story of Lesley Bilinda who was living and working for
Tear Fund in Rwanda and who lost her husband and many friends during
the civil war when approximately one million Rwandans were killed.
The twelve
chapters of the book take the reader through the journey of Lesley
Bilinda arriving in Gahini in 1989 as a health worker through to
her marriage to Rwandan Pastor, Charles Bilinda in December 1992
and on to the genocide of 1994, which started at a time when Lesley
was on holiday with her sister in Kenya.
The author
includes personal entries from her diary during the genocide and
the many agonising weeks which followed when the whereabouts of
her husband Charles, was unknown. Through these extracts she describes
the anguish and uncertainty of not knowing whether her husband was
alive or dead for many months, and the pain of hearing the news
of friends and colleagues slaughtered during the 100-day genocide.
A detailed
account is given of the months following the killings and the death
of Charles, including the tragic scenes of loss and destruction
which the author saw on return to Rwanda during a one month visit
in October 1994. The authors account of what she witnessed
on returning to the country where she had lived for five years was
difficult to read because the depth and scale of destruction was
so immense. Families had been wiped out, homes looted and burnt
out and in certain areas the smell of dead bodies left rotting in
rivers and on hillsides was a lingering reminder of what had taken
place. In reading the book ten years on from the genocide I felt
guilty at the realisation that I had never fully grasped the seriousness
of what was happening in Rwanda in 1994. This feeling was heightened
by the fact that as I was reading the book the awful news of the
tsunami disaster and the ever increasing death toll was being broadcast.
It brought home to me that although we often see news coverage of
terrible events, both natural and man-made, affecting thousands
of lives, our attention to such events can be shallow and short-lived.
The conversational
way in which the book is written makes the book very accessible.
The inclusion of personal diary entries made me aware that the author
was sharing some of her deepest thoughts and I felt privileged as
a reader to share these experiences. Obviously given the nature
of the book some of the text is difficult to read because the existence
of such hatred among communities is hard to fathom and the numbers
of people killed is difficult to comprehend. However the book also
tells amazing stories of peoples miraculous escapes through
Gods love and protection. What struck me was that even when
the author was at rock bottom, she held on to God and her faith.
She recognised that it was only the love of God that could give
her the strength to go on and the peace she needed. This book tells
the miraculous story of how God can work in the most tragic of circumstances
and is a book which everyone should read.
JACQUI LIVINGSTONE
is PA to the Director and Personnel Co-ordinator with the Centre
for Contemporary Christianity in Ireland.
THE COLOUR
OF DARKNESS, A personal story of tragedy and hope in Rwanda,
Leslie Bilinda
Published
by Hodder & Stoughton, London, 1996.
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